This week has been rough. Problem after problem, stress growing and growing, building up more and more. It's enough to drive a man up a wall and across the ceiling (it's anyone's guess is he'll get down the other wall or just fall on his back). But I suppose everyone goes through that, don't they?
Maybe I'm just weak, letting this mess get to me. Shit piles up, more and more, and it gets harder and harder to deal with. How do I keep my head above it? I feel like I could drown in it at any time.
I guess all I can do is try to keep my head above it all. Fix what I can and do my best to move on from the rest. Its tough to keep tour head up when life insists on going another round in the ring, again and again, only sporadically offering respite before the bell rings and I take another beating.
So what can we do? Get back up, get back in the ring, back to the desk, back at whatever life is using to put you down. There's no way to "win" per se, we just barely, incrementally improve before life throws in some new twist to break your momentum. But we do make progress. It's an everlasting uphill battle and we just have to keep fighting.
So I'll keep writing, even if nobody else cares to read it. I'll keep coding, even if I am absolutely abysmal it, at least until I get that degree. I'll keep looking for work (anybody interested in hiring) wherever I can. I'll keep pushing through life until I feel I've hit a point where I think I deserve a rest. Not giving up, but something more than a temporary respite from the shit life will inevitably throw my way.
